You're the only person who has ever made me feel that way. It sucks! Since everybody keeps getting sad about it.. writing songs and poems about it.. People kill themselves because of that feeling.. but it's a feeling I miss.. On the other site, I also miss the opposite. It's not just love I'm reffering to right here. It's rejection. The fact that you love someone more than they love you. Only once, have that happened to me. No one have ever broken up with me. It's always me who's the mean one... and I HATE that. I'm sick of ending up as the mean one, even when I'm trying to be as sweet as possible.
People always say I'm cute and sweet and beautiful. But I still don't feel like I'm good enough.. because I can't tell those things to people and mean it from deep inside my heart. I can't tell a person I love them while looking them in the eyes. I'm the evil one. And that's always how it ends.
The one person who didn't make me the evil one, is never going to give me a chance.. so fuck this.. If I'm really lucky, I'll meet someone who I can love as much as I love that person. As it is now.. it sucks.
I know this sounds so depressing.. but I don't have anyone else to tell how I feel, than this blog. My diary of feelings.. yup yup..
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