Being in control is satisfying. To be in so much control, you can make everything around you do as you want to, is an amazing feeling. To have that power. The meanest, but also most satisfying form of control, is to be able to control people. To look into their eyes, and read them like an open book, just to manipulate with them afterwards. Yup, it's very mean, and no one should ever do that to another person. It's just not easy to resist such a big temptation of full control.
Boys.. they're the easiest ones. Girls always know you're playing games, and they're almost always good at spotting if you're manipulating, but boys... they're different. They're so easy to twirl around your fingertip.. you don't have to try very hard. But if you're not cold as ice when it comes to feelings, you'll get hurt. Because at some point, when you're done with playing games, you'll end up breaking their hearts.
Anyways.. the biggest point of this thread is my personal problem. I cannot control myself. I can't understand the feelings I'm feeling, the thoughts I'm thinking, the things I'm longing for.. and it kills me not to be in control, since I pretty much always am. I really hope, that someday me and the people around me will get old enough to stop playing games, and just be completely honest with each other. Then I might begin to understand myself, and be able to control myself. Hah.. I wish.. not gonna happen.
- Kayleigh
Heh, to think control is within your grasp is to deny the existence of reality. Perception can do a lot of shit to you, I say!
ReplyDeleteJeg ved du ikke er så kold som du går og tror. Du har et hjerte, og du er bare forsigtig med det... forståeligt. Forstår dig godt...
Og hvis der er noget du ikke er... så er det en kontrolfreak... så er du i hvert fald en meget dårlig kontrolfreak x'D
ReplyDeleteYou can gain control by being in the moment. Learn to feel your body and concentrate on where you are right now. That will help you.
ReplyDeleteVi kan selvfølgelig ikke styre alt omkring os, men vi kan lære at være forberedt på overraskelser og ikke lade os slå ud. Jeg tror på at vi alle kan forstå hinanden bedre, hvis vi lære at forstå os selv først. Det gælder bare om at finde det rigtige værktøj og den rigtige hjælp.