People changes

I've lately felt like people around me has changed a lot. I know I'm changing too, but I don't think we change in the same direction. I feel like I can't trust or depend on people the same way I used to. It might be a good thing, because I have started to be more independent, personally... But I also feel like I'm more alone now. I don't want to hang with people if there's just going to be awkward silence and no interesting conversations. And lately it's been me who started those conversations, every time.. both along family and friends. It's weird to go through all these changes...

But I know this is all just thoughts. In real life, I am, and always will be to naive to cut off people like that. I will always try to start conversations and do my best to become closer to the people around me. Maybe that's the best, since I try to be as optimistic as I can. Sometimes those doubtful thoughts just go through my head, and they always end up making me sad..... Yea I know I'm silly.

It's just.. hard when people change so much, you have no idea how they feel or think anymore.

Anyways.. I better start paying attention to french class now.

- Kayleigh