The missing feeling.

You're the only person who has ever made me feel that way. It sucks! Since everybody keeps getting sad about it.. writing songs and poems about it.. People kill themselves because of that feeling.. but it's a feeling I miss.. On the other site, I also miss the opposite. It's not just love I'm reffering to right here. It's rejection. The fact that you love someone more than they love you. Only once, have that happened to me. No one have ever broken up with me. It's always me who's the mean one... and I HATE that. I'm sick of ending up as the mean one, even when I'm trying to be as sweet as possible.
People always say I'm cute and sweet and beautiful. But I still don't feel like I'm good enough.. because I can't tell those things to people and mean it from deep inside my heart. I can't tell a person I love them while looking them in the eyes. I'm the evil one. And that's always how it ends.
The one person who didn't make me the evil one, is never going to give me a chance.. so fuck this.. If I'm really lucky, I'll meet someone who I can love as much as I love that person. As it is now.. it sucks.

I know this sounds so depressing.. but I don't have anyone else to tell how I feel, than this blog. My diary of feelings.. yup yup..

Frustration!

Have you guys ever been really close to someone.. and then for some reason you can't figure out, you slowly float apart.. I guess we've all experienced something alike.. with an ex-bf.. a friend from school or whatever. There's just one thing which is different this time. I know why it's happening. There's someone better than me. I'm not needed anymore...... Thanks for nothing. I'm sick of fighting for this!

I'll let Mayday Parade describe my feelings!

Bye.

Why are you whining?

People around me is whining a LOT! To whine is alright, if you need to tell someone how you feel, either because they can help you solve the problem, or because they can make you feel better about the whole situation. The last option is mostly if the person is a very close friend, your partner or a family member. But sometimes, people whine without any reason at all. I've noticed that teenagers is a group of people who's whining much more than any other age group. They whine just to whine. They whine because they don't have anything else to talk or converse about. And lately, it has annoyed me a lot.

If something irritates you, then you should try doing something about it. "I'm too fat", then loose some weight. "This task is way too difficult" then ask a teacher, or concentrate. "Me and my boyfriend never do anything together" then FIND something to do together, or maybe talk to him about how you feel, so he can help you solve the problem. But some things in life, is just unfair, and there's nothing to do about it. You just have to learn to accept it. If you can't accept it, then sign off. Get out of it. If you aren't good enough to solve the tasks in school, maybe you should pick another education. If the task is to easy, then for god's sake, be PATIENT. Some time, they will reach your level, and you can begin to learn something.

I know, that this blog is mostly me whining about stuff. But this is my space, to say whatever I want. Because sometimes it's easier to get through with a problem and do something about it, if I first gather all my thoughts, and think it all through, so I know what to do about my problem. Plus I think people might find it interesting to see that I might have the same problems as them.