Control freak

Being in control is satisfying. To be in so much control, you can make everything around you do as you want to, is an amazing feeling. To have that power. The meanest, but also most satisfying form of control, is to be able to control people. To look into their eyes, and read them like an open book, just to manipulate with them afterwards. Yup, it's very mean, and no one should ever do that to another person. It's just not easy to resist such a big temptation of full control.

Boys.. they're the easiest ones. Girls always know you're playing games, and they're almost always good at spotting if you're manipulating, but boys... they're different. They're so easy to twirl around your fingertip.. you don't have to try very hard. But if you're not cold as ice when it comes to feelings, you'll get hurt. Because at some point, when you're done with playing games, you'll end up breaking their hearts.

Anyways.. the biggest point of this thread is my personal problem. I cannot control myself. I can't understand the feelings I'm feeling, the thoughts I'm thinking, the things I'm longing for.. and it kills me not to be in control, since I pretty much always am. I really hope, that someday me and the people around me will get old enough to stop playing games, and just be completely honest with each other. Then I might begin to understand myself, and be able to control myself. Hah.. I wish.. not gonna happen.

- Kayleigh

Defines love

        "Love is like a war. Easy to start, difficult

          to stop, and never to forget,,

Just a heartless angel

Yup yup.. She looks amazingly beautiful. Long wings with soft and fragile feathers. Big blue eyes, soft skin, soft lips with a red tone. She knows she looks very sweet and beautiful, and she knows people thinks that she is a sweet and warm person. Always giving and always helping out. Always making people feel better, always listening, always advising. And yes, she is all those things. Only problem is, when you cut her chest open, you'll find no heart. It's not that someone ripped it out. She just haven't found that special one who can give her a heart yet. Because the truth is, that no matter how sweet and helpful she seems, she will take advantage of you in the end. She will try to steal your heart, and if she can't have it, or if it isn't good enough for her, she will break it. Crush it. It's horrible how everyone would probably think she's a mean girl, after knowing what she does to people.. but the truth is, she's only longing to be as good a person as she looks. She only fights to be what she really wants to be, she just doesn't know any better method than this. If you ever meet her, tell her that you know her story, be gentle to her, and don't let her crush you, as she did to so many other before you. Take your time to find her soft spots, and help her become that angel she's truly longing to be. Please. Give her a chance.

- Kayleigh