Cliché

Cliché.. that one has developed a really negative tone. And why is that? We call something cliché if it's overdone. That song is so cliché because we've heart it a million times. It's so cliché to bring flowers to your girlfriend because everyone does. But really.. just because it's overdone, it doesn't have to be negative. I would actually say that if a song has been song so many times everyone knows it by heart, there must be a reason why. If everyone brings flowers to their girlfriend, it might be because something good happened from doing it. I mean.. there wouldn't be a million people doing it if they only got a bad reaction from doing it.

Yes, I do admit, I can be quite a cliché girly girl myself. I'm romantic, love when my boyfriend do stuff like making dinner and lid some candles, or bring chocolate on valentine's day. Because all those things make me really happy. You don't have to be original and plan out something yourself. It's okey to be cliché. Most people will still get happy. Of course, originality is great aswell, since it's mostly more personal, but the clichés can be very great as well!

Besides cliché actions, I love cliché fraces.. like
- When you have lemons, make lemonade
- Love is blind
- A little bird told me
- Beauty, freedom, truth and love

I love clichés, and I think the world should stop being so hateful about them, since they're "over"-used for a reason (:

Orgasmic goosebumps

It's the best feeling in the world. The feeling you get right after you got your back massaged. Or when you've tasted your first bite of your new favorite food. Or when you look someone in the eye and know this is it. This feels right. When you kiss the person you love for the first time. Or when you get your first long hug from a friend. When you hear the laugh of someone who's laughter is so joyful, you can't not laugh along.

This is my favorite feeling of all time. When I get it, I really know the person who gave it to me is special to me. That's how I know I wanna stay with someone, and be their friend forever. Or at least for as long as possible. A girl gave it to me a few months ago. We were at work together, and I was really tired and disinclined. Only reason I didn't ask to go home was because I was there with my favorite colleague. She's always happy, and can always make other people happy. I sat at our kitchen table behind the counter and did nothing. Then she suddenly made me an ice cream (I work in an ice cream store). She took a few of her favorite flavors, and of my favorite flavors, put mousse on it, and chocolate flakes in a pattern which formed the first letter of my name, and then a quarter of a perfect strawberry on top.
I didn't even like all of the flavors in the ice cream, but it was still the most delicious ice cream I've ever had, because she made it because she cared for me and wanted me to feel better. She did something just for me, that she wouldn't even get anything out of. That was a special moment! Gave me orgasmic goosebumps!

There's not many people who has ever given me this feeling. But those who have mean the world to me.
Some of my best friends haven't ever made me feel this way, but I still love them. But the day someone gives me the orgasmic goosebumps, I know they own a tiny piece of my heart, and they always will.

You make me smile

One of the first times we met

The first time I met her, I thought I would never be able to get close to her. I would be lucky if I even got a chance to talk to her. She was an unreachable target. Everybody knew who she was, and of course they did. She was amazing. She was beautiful, had the most kick-ass style I had ever seen, was funny and had a laugh so contagious I still can't help smiling every time I hear it. Besides, I just looked up to her. Not as a big sister, more as an idol. The day we met, I had brought my guitar. We sat in the same group, and she asked if she could play it. Just the fact that she talked to me made me sort of speechless, so I just gave her the guitar without a word. I had never felt like that around a girl. Maybe around a guy who I fancied, but this was different. I just felt drawn to her personality... nothing romantic. That day, we ended up talking a whole lot. The day was followed by many summernights with plenty of alcohol, weird people, and just freedom from norms and rules we had to follow when we weren't together.
A year went by, and we didn't see each other much. She started on a boarding school, and was never at home. We chatted on the computer, and texted too. As soon as she got home, her and I became something special. Somehow, we built a bond which to me seems unbreakable. We have shared so many things, and we just know a hella lot of things about each other! Then, I got a boyfriend. He and I were together in 9 months. She was there for me through the whole relationship, and was so supportive. She was the only one I really went to, if he and I had problems. She was very understanding and caring. She made me feel wanted in moments of low self esteem. She was the only person who could make a completely real smile appear on my lips, even though I had just had a fight with my boyfriend. And through the breakup, she was 100% there for me. We talked everything through so many times, and I'm not sure I would have managed everything so well, if she hadn't been there. The other way around, I have been there for her as well. I know almost everything about her, even things she doesn't tell her other close friends. It makes me feel special. She makes me feel special. I really hope her and I will stay together forever - though, sadly, I've experienced otherwise with other close friends in my life /:... but this, feels different.
All I wanna say with this thread, is I really love this girl to death, and I hope I will never ever lose her!
I love you Martha <3

Being silly, new year's eve <3

Another quote!

"Love is an illusion

- so fuck reality!"

Go tell them

I stood looking at my foot on the pedal. I was wearing heels, which wasn't the most safe footwear to bike in, and I knew that, but I wanted to look pretty and tall that night. It was about 3am, and the snow was falling. Calmly and with big snowflakes laying like a soft, but freezing sheet over the fields. It would only take me 3 and a half minute to bike home from the bus station, as it always did. I took a deep breath, and white air floated out my mouth, like the smoke from a cigarette. I carefully started biking. Listened to the sound of the wheels rolling through the thick snow. I turned, and was careful not to fall because of the slippery and icy ground. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. Got a text message. Caught myself hoping it was from one particular person. While biking, I took up my phone, and I started smiling since it WAS from him. - Next thing happening is me laying on the ground. I felt a warm liquid drip down my cheek. I closed my eyes. I heard a car door slam and a person running towards me.. after that everything disappeared.

No, this didn't really happen to me. But every time I look at my foot on the pedal of my bike, I think "I might die in a minute or two from now". Whow, that sounds depressing.. but the reason why I think it, is because it makes me remember to tell people around me what they mean to me. I can't leave the house in the morning without getting a kiss and a "Have a good day" from my mom. It's important to me, because it might be the last time I see her.
And not only letting people know how I feel about them, but also.. if there's something I've thought about telling someone, but been too shy to say, I force myself to do it anyways, since when the day is over, it might be too late. So I call on all of you.. if you like a sweet girl or guy.. if you have a best friend who means the world to them.. if you're still lucky enough to have your parents around, and you still love them... Go ahead and tell them, before it's too late!! <3

When her hair is up

If you ever see me with my hair in a bun, be very careful around me. Because it always means I'm really down. I might just have had a bad morning, and my mood can change during the day, but then I take my hair down so I can feel free and feel like myself again. I might just be in an emotional chaos - like today. Sometimes I really can't figure out why I feel like I do.. I can hardly figure out what I even feel.. so when people ask me, I just get annoyed, and kind of sad, because I once again realize I don't understand what's going on in my mind. I always have an idea on why i feel the way I do, but mostly I deny that thought, since it's always something I don't think is okey of me to think.. I know, it's weird.

But this is just a trick to figure out how you guys should act around me. If you annoy me when my hair is up, I'm not just gonna give you my killer-eyes as I normally do. I will literally hit you with a book or something like that. If not, I'll run away and cry - I think. So don't piss me off, and don't make me sad. Just be very gentle to me, and try to make me happy? If you care for me of course.. if you don't care I guess you can just ignore me as usual?



- Kayleigh

That's not my name

Iiii know my real name isn't Kayleigh.. and people keep asking me why I use that name, so I guess it'll be much easier if I just write a blogpost about it.

I live in Denmark, and we pronounce stuff very very weird.. like.. a very used word, I is "jeg" in danish. It's pronounced [Jaj] kinda. Anyways. People can never pronounce my real name correctly, so I decided to get an american or english name. I've watched "The Butterfly Effect" many times, and I love the character Kayleigh. I can draw many parallels between her and me (weird, I know). Besides I like the cute sound of the name.

Also, I'd like to make a distance between my real life and my online life, and I thought an online name would be a good way to do so.

- Kayleigh

Musical inspiration of the month

As I've already told you guys, I'm studying music. Right now, we're having a theme about baroque, and the culture and music from back then. My teacher told us how we can draw parallels between big compositions by for example Bach, and today's classic rock melodies. That's when I suddenly remembered an amazing artist I used to listen to a lot. Emilie Autumn. She is a singer, a composer, violinist and fashion inspiration. She started writing music when she was a small kid (just like the big classic composers like Mozart and Bach), and as a kid she dreamed of becoming a famous classical violinist. Her background is coming through very clearly in her music. She uses instruments like harpsichord, cello, and of course her dearest possession, the violin. No wonder why she loves it so much.. I mean, Look at it!!! (in the pictures below) :i

The reason why she inspires me this much is because, I've been both playing violin and composing when I was a kid, but I never got as far with it as she has. Also the fact that she is such a big history-nerd and connects so much with the big classic composers... She's just amazing to me! I can listen to her music for hours and hours, and float away on a pink cloud. The sound of the bow running over the strings. The flicking sound of the harpsichord, and her amazing voice which can both sing a deep and full alto, but also a light and sharp soprano, with an amazing vibrato. Omg.. I love her.. She's one of the only musicians who has ever made me cry!

Besides.. her fashion style is indescribable because it's so... so.. extraordinary and creative, so I'm just gonna post a bunch of pictures of her, plus some videos with my favorite songs:

- Kayleigh

Questions

I was bored, and felt like you guys haven't heard anything new from me in some time.. so yea... found this Q&A on another blog ^^


1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Yes.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Well, I'm 18 myself, so wouldn't be a surprise to anyone? : D

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Iiii don't know?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I smile at the busdriver every morning : D
 
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I have no idea. I don't think so though.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Yes. Most songs I hear reminds me of some memories or some people.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
A top, a sweater, a scarf and underwear ^^

8. How often do you listen to music?
On a daily basis.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans!!! I hate sweats >.<

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
Nnnnope... I'm probably just going to continue on my education.. Start dancing again.. But nothing dramatic.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
I'd consider myself as a social person.. But at a party a month or two ago, a girl told me she thought I was very hard to get to talk to.. so I guess she thought I was antisocial? s:

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
Nope.

13. What about ‘S’?
Yes.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
I don't have a license.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Compares on who they are and what they say. If it's just a stranger who talks shit about me for no reason, I don't really care. But if it's a very close friend who talk about a secret of mine, or something similar, then of course I care!!

16. Are you going out of town soon?
Not until March.

17. When was the last time you cried?
When I broke up with Nicklas.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yes.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
I wouldn't mind it to be either more blue or more gray, cause right now it's just a mix of those two.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
No never. I only do things if I find it acceptable. Fx I would never give up my career or education for a guy.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
I've had a headache all day.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
I know spots that are cuter :i

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
Nope. I'm not dating anyone atm.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
My bed.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
My closest friends.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Sort of. We never ended up together but.. we were very close both emotionally and physically and everything.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My mom.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Yes. All the time :c.. I'm allergic.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Deres I think.

30. Does anyone hate you?
Uhm.. I don't know for sure, but it wouldn't surprise me. Oh wait, I know one who hates me. Yes..

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden in your room?
I have a half-full bottle of captain morgan :b mmmh

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Naah.. I always find them kinda lame.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
It IS pierced. And I wouldn't get more piercings in it. I think it looks really stupid, with more than one tongue piercing.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?I wouldn't delete any years in my life, since they all made me who I am.. but if I had to, I would like to delete the year I spent with my first bf.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
Uhhmmmmm...... Yes! It was about a very close friend of mine.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Yesterday I think.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I'm not sure I ever wanna get married.. so.. no, I don't think so.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Nnnope.. Or maybe, but then he won't admit it. All my exes are over me, but I do have a friend or two I could suspect.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Yup ^^

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Njaaa.. a bit stressfull actually. And very exhausting.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? 
Yup.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? 
Yes. Girl's night out tonight :i

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? 
Yes. Almost every boyfriend I had.. didn't end up very well..

44. What’s the best part about school?
Learning ^^ (I'm a nerd!)

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Yes? Is there anyone who doesn't?

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
I used to when I was a kid. It was so funny :i

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Sometimes. Especially if it's good memories : D

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Nope.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Not at all!!! All people changes a lot when they're teenagers.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Nothing.. sleeping... thought about getting a cup of tea.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Uhm... Nope ^^.. I don't hate that much.. I sometimes dislike, or get irritated, but it takes me a lot to hate someone.

52. Are you nice to everyone?
I try to be.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes!!

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes. I've never cheated and only one of the relationships I've been in was less than 6 months. 

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes. I'm an actress [;
 
56. Do you think you like someone?
I like a lot of people, and I love many people aswell. But I don't like anyone in the dating-way atm.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’?
Nope.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
I can't decide.. I'm not very good at being friends with guys, cause I mostly start dating with them.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yes.

60. Do you hate anyone?
Haven't I already answered this one?

61. How’s your heart?
Weird question >.<.. you should ask my doctor, but I think it's fine. 

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
Yes. There's things I haven't ever talked about.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Yes. Many times.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
Uhmmmm... I don't think anyone is.
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
Nope. They were black a few weeks ago ^^
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Uhm. Maybe. I think I'm getting drunk tonight.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
Not necessarily.. I don't like it personally. I like when they're open about their feelings, but crying is a little too much.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Nope. I wear really tight pants.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Clara I think ^^
70. How do you look right now?
Like I'm sick. I'm laying in my bed relaxing.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
My sister. 

72. Can you commit to one person?
Yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Nope.
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
No.
75. Did you wake up cranky?
A little. I always do. I wanna sleep moooore.
76. Are you a jealous person?
No. Far from. I'm very liberal when it comes to relationships.
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Yes. They can change you into a whole different person, and they might find the real you, if you find the right person I think.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Yes.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
No thank you.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Go eat dinner with my best friend.
81. Last person you cried in front of?
Nicklas. My ex.
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Of course. There're lots of people I'll never forget.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
I don't have feelings for anybody right now.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?I don't wish to be with anybody -.-

85. Are you over your past?
I don't think you can get over your past. The past will always affect you as a person.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
Yes.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
No.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
No. I can't ever forgive him for what he's done to me.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
No. I never let anyone in to my house, unless they're really close to me.. or nobody's home
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Yes.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
No.
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
No.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
Nope ^^ 
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
Yes I was. We had only been together for 1 month by then. So we were all.. in love.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Sort of.
97. Who do you have texts from?
Lots of people :b

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Cool dude.. good for you. Aaaand then I'd go home and eat ice cream ^^
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes.
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
Noone
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
Yes. New year's kiss?